Sunday, August 18, 2013

I CAN NEVER MAKE UP MY MIND

Hello teacher friends!!

My last post made me so excited that the next morning I woke up, turned on my laptop and began working again right away.   No breakfast.  No coffee. (which is absolutely shocking!) I was just so excited to see if it was possible to move to my dream country & after chatting with a few people, it turns out that it is possible...just not yet.  I have to achieve permanent certification in any US state in order to be a qualified teacher in the UK.  This means that, in NY, I need to get a Masters and have three years experience within 5 years.  I'm only lacking the experience right now.  I could apply in another state for certification, one that doesn't require the three years.  However, after some research I discovered that most states require additional testing and it's more money to apply, so doing that right now would be a little rushed and a little out of the question.

However, once I become certified in NYS I can apply for the UK.  It's still achievable and I haven't given up on my new dream.  I think this is definitely where I want to take my teaching career.  I've never had a "teaching dream", besides maybe getting a PhD (with all the extra money I don't have).  I think I need to start a UK fund, saving up extra cash for the inevitable move.  Every time I think of this dream, I get the biggest smile on my face and my heart fills up and I know this is what I'm meant to do.

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The newest development in my hunt revolves around my terrible timing.  It is that it's coming down to the "back to school" wire and I didn't make the moving decision fast enough.  I'm glad I finally decided I could do it, but it was just a bit too late.  I might be able to snag a long term sub out of state, but not necessarily a full-time position at this point. 

Here's where I need to put my ego aside and start from the bottom.  I was called about a full time position from the Catholic school where I use to sub, although I'm not sure what position or grade.  As much as I am pigheaded and stubborn and don't really want to take it (I've said before that I would never take a position there), I woke up this morning thinking "I need to take it."

Why the hell have I changed my mind?  

Because I realized that I need to start somewhere.  I realized I won't have my dream job right away and my classroom won't be perfect to begin with.  I need to crush that idea right now.  So what if I need to spend a few years in a position (an extremely LOCAL position at that) that isn't my favorite.  I absolutely love most of the kids at the school, I've known them for few years.  I'm secretly hoping it's a position for the same group of kids I was once an aide for; the principal knows how much I connected with that group.  But whatever the circumstances I hope this works out.  I need to bite the bullet and take what I can get and be happy for the experience.  I'd rather work out how I want my classroom run than sit in my room waiting for another call (that will never happen) simply dreaming of what I want my room to look like.  I'm not going to lie, I'll be crushed if it doesn't work out.  But that's not a concern I need to have right now.

I guess that I will give the principal a call tomorrow.  Maybe I can stay local to teach and can therefore still teach dance and  still volunteer with other schools and still be around family.  Just maybe.

If you have a mind that works like mine... I feel for you! This constant changing of opinion is tiring and can't keep up.  I hope all of your back to school searches and setup has been going well!

Thanks for reading! xx


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